So it's Friday! I'm almost down to my last week(s) here with Extension. The funding for my position was cut earlier this month and so I'm back in the job market. Maybe not for long. There is the prospect of a departmental transfer, that I'm not super-excited about. I think it's really interesting how things come about at such unique times coalescing with circumstances that, on a surface level, may seem unrelated. Little things like this reaffirm that God is in control...how ever out of control I may feel, I can rest on that.

So what's next for me? Your guess may be as good as mine. But for now, I'm trying to take it all in and make some sound decisions. Don't know how good of a job I'm doing at this, but I'm trying. I would ideally like to find myself in a non-routinized position where my creativity is allowed to thrive. Documentary production is at the forefront of my consciousness, so I'm trying to identify a career-route that could lead me to the autonomy and freedom of someday making my livelihood off of my own creative work. I recently shared a conversation in which I discussed my long-standing fear and disdain for working a 'desk-job'...8-5...day after day. I realize that for some people this is very satisfying; the predictability may suit them just fine. But as far back as I can remember...[as long as i've know such a thing existed], I have dreaded and feared the monotony of the proverbial 'desk job'. As a society we undoubtedly need individuals who thrive in these types of occupations, but for me, I know I want something different. Even if part of what I end up doing requires some degree of routine and 'desk work', at least I might potentially have the luxury of setting the schedule of these events.

So yes, it's still Friday, but instead of anticipating-the-weekend-excitement, I feel choked down with the doldrums. I received my 'Real-Simple' daily quote in my inbox this morning, and it made me think...so maybe you'll enjoy it too:

"In all chaos there is a cosmos, in all disorder a secret order."

—Carl Jung

So here's to trusting in the divine order of things and the hope that they will all fall into place.